Welcome to Hotel California...
So, lets review. I'm taken, I guess. We'll see how it works out. She makes me smile, and makes me laugh. That's a big deal for me. Got to visit an old mentor from the past, and I'm realizing that he's not immortal. but they sure as hell dont' build them like the used to. I'll miss him. Parental unit number one has had hip replacement, he's WIA. Hobbling around like a wounded duck. However it is that they hobble about. He'll heal. One way or another. Well here's hoping at least. Talked witha boy who's good at finding people a day or two ago. It's good to be back. I am back aren't I? I'll have to figure that one out on my own I guess. But now that I think about it... I'll never recover. I am damaged goods, and I need to work on fixxing the cracks and chips that I inflicted on myself. Thought of damaged goods... Need to remember. what is it to care? what does that feel like? The more I try to remember, the more I realize that I have no recollection. I've finally done what I swore to myself that I would do. Forget. Forget and never remember. Never look back.
I didn't know that by doing so I was burning the bridges that would let me try again. This is most unfortunate, and now I'm throwing ropes across, hoping Genesis will catch one, maybe more if I'm lucky. Help me rebuild. But the funny thing is we might already be one the same side, wishing we were on the other. Is that why she holds on to me as though I may simply disappear at any moment? It's something I've never felt before, to feel wanted, to feel... that she cares. Is that caring? or is that me being a sort of body pillow. if so, she has rather poor taste in pillows for I'm far to boney to provide much comfort. And it makes me feel good. Hugs are what I need right now. It's helping.
Not only can Objects not hurt you, but they can't love you either.
So here's to tearing down walls. And the patience of a young girl with eyes enough to see something that I cannot see inside of myself.
" Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."
-CR
So, lets review. I'm taken, I guess. We'll see how it works out. She makes me smile, and makes me laugh. That's a big deal for me. Got to visit an old mentor from the past, and I'm realizing that he's not immortal. but they sure as hell dont' build them like the used to. I'll miss him. Parental unit number one has had hip replacement, he's WIA. Hobbling around like a wounded duck. However it is that they hobble about. He'll heal. One way or another. Well here's hoping at least. Talked witha boy who's good at finding people a day or two ago. It's good to be back. I am back aren't I? I'll have to figure that one out on my own I guess. But now that I think about it... I'll never recover. I am damaged goods, and I need to work on fixxing the cracks and chips that I inflicted on myself. Thought of damaged goods... Need to remember. what is it to care? what does that feel like? The more I try to remember, the more I realize that I have no recollection. I've finally done what I swore to myself that I would do. Forget. Forget and never remember. Never look back.
I didn't know that by doing so I was burning the bridges that would let me try again. This is most unfortunate, and now I'm throwing ropes across, hoping Genesis will catch one, maybe more if I'm lucky. Help me rebuild. But the funny thing is we might already be one the same side, wishing we were on the other. Is that why she holds on to me as though I may simply disappear at any moment? It's something I've never felt before, to feel wanted, to feel... that she cares. Is that caring? or is that me being a sort of body pillow. if so, she has rather poor taste in pillows for I'm far to boney to provide much comfort. And it makes me feel good. Hugs are what I need right now. It's helping.
Not only can Objects not hurt you, but they can't love you either.
So here's to tearing down walls. And the patience of a young girl with eyes enough to see something that I cannot see inside of myself.
" Never give up on a dream just because of the time it will take to accomplish it. The time will pass anyway."
-CR
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