they say that everyone has their price.
I am no different.
Is it forgivness you seek? Very well then, it can be obtained. But my currency of choice is pain. Suffering.
Now, I will see just how much you are worth...
Beware the wraith of a patient man.
-CR
I am no different.
Is it forgivness you seek? Very well then, it can be obtained. But my currency of choice is pain. Suffering.
Now, I will see just how much you are worth...
Beware the wraith of a patient man.
-CR
1 Comments:
Is it patience, or is it being stubborn?
I read this next quote in a book and it reminded me of the kinds of things that you post in your blog: "Life is full of grief, to exactly the degree we allow ourselves to love other people." But in this novel, the reason it was said was to show that love and caring is such a prominent force, and it's better to love and have pain, than to be void of it. It's true that the more love you have the bigger change you have at getting hurt, but denying love and not allowing yourself to have the emotions doesn't mean you still can't get hurt. Being void and stubborn and passive can bring just as much pain and suffering as getting hurt over love; it just comes from a different source. It's internal. It's completely self inflicted. Why is it that you want to be in so much pain. It just saddens me whenever I read some of your postings. Is it a safety thing? like you feel safer and more in control if you inflict all the feelings on yourself so that others can't do it to you first?
The reason I started to read your blogs was for the sarcastic humor and oddly amazing poetry that you write. But it's morphed.
You have happiness in your life but you scorn it. You have friends but it seems you push them away. You write about making choices and being strong but you're just scared and afraid of admitting that you've become weak and don't want to be hurt. Well then instead of running away from these things and being patient, or having wrath but keeping it inside... LIVE! Don't be afraid of the pain, or the excitment, or the good or the bad. The only way you're going to heal is if you face life head on and just say FUCKIT. Things can only get better if you let go of the past, and i'm not saying getting RID of the past, but getting to a point where you can look at it and go there's one chapter in my life, yes it sucked at the time, but I can make myself happy NOW. It's all about the now. We all HAVE to live in the present because that's the only thing that we can experience in full.
I wish that I could help, or give you the support that you feel like you're lacking. However I don't know you and you don't know me. So that doesn't get us anywhere.
Please don't read this as a person being harsh. Read it as a person so full of concern and love that they want to show how much they care.
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