She is gone. And I am broken.

""I wept, but only a little. It didn’t seem that weeping was going to do any good." He sighs. "It doesn’t change anything. It just makes me feel a bit more alive. I don’t know whether that’s good. While you’re alive, you’re hurting."
"It’s the possibility that when you’re dead you might still go on hurting that bothers me," she says grimly."
- The Bone People

-CR