Friend sent to Childrens Orthapedic Hospital last night in critical condition. Got out of the Intensive Care Unit today at noon. Second trip up there this week. Everything around me seems to die. I am so frusterated. 2 deaths from cancer, one critically sick one still fighting. One blood infection. I tell myself, these are only four people. Only four people... but, I knew them. I liked them. Does this happen to anyone else besides me? At least... at least I am done. It is finished and nothing else is today. This hurts me deeply. Makes me angry. Shit like this is supposed to happen to someone else. Not to people I know. Far, away. Not around me.

Or am I next?

Or... ?

-CR