So that's it then. Nevermind how determined I am. That's it then. I've failed and it's over. I tried so hard. again. i thought it would be different this time. or something. i remember matriculation. i guess my candle blew out. there goes the scholorship. there goes an on time graduation. there goes this school. there goes my pride. there goes my life. i want to die now. there isn't anything left. how can she look at me. i am a failure. i am nothing. what have i ever done. what happened. i am just another statistic now. i am the percentage that does not graduate. i am the percentage that drops out and kills themselves. i don't want to live anymore i just want to end it all andi can't deal with this anymore. i treid so hard i can't type through the tears. i wish everythin would go away. let me die. i want to die just FUCK OFF it doesn't matter anymore it is all hopeless. oh and i KNEW the material but i couldn't do it. so now what. i guess i go killmyelf or something. no this isn't the end of the road i tellmyself. but it really is. i tried so hard. and there is nothing. i tried so hard and i will fail. why bother trying anymore. i'll just fail againandagain
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"Suicide is your way of telling God: you can't fire me. I quit."

-CR