well now what? went to tacoma with the clever one today. spent a large amount on metal goods specifically aluminum and stalin. see, cause stalin is russian for steel... arn't i clever? how's what going? oh... pretty well. ok. we spake of many things there and back. including that the Girl who Sounds like the ocean has been added to the fold. totally silent. if you are traced as the leak. i will end you. foolish words considering the task that you were kinda assigned. though i know not why i am even havening to do this at all. one would assume that i could grow a backbone and just go for it... and not be all subtle and crap. but ugh oh well. once again this feels like a jarvis redux. looks like the parental misdirection has paid off. fools. but now of course they want to know who i'm going to ask... out of despiration i have made up a girl. she doesn't exsist. rather funny. at least i find it funny. and if you don't then you need to sleep less and then read this... because your brain is obviously hitting on more cylanders than mine. oh let's see what was her name... some rediculious thing like lizzy mitchken or something... yikes, i should try to remember what it was... lest they spot inconsistancys and put 2 and 2 together. and end up with 5. new math you know. running from the cops game was great fun.... up until the real cops showed up. that was truely a downer for all involved. amusing none the less however. i feel, that it should be done again, though with maybe fewer girls... they were largely useless. more than maybe. eliminate the females. no matter. a good time was had by all. blah blah blah. my self still seems to be hiding from myself, which is troubling. Still don't know who i am, but whatever (should show you how angry i am. i have a thing about that word... implies indifference, when in reality no one is indifferent, so they could be less subtle and just say "take a flying leap". yes. never use that word in my presence. ever.), after awhile you quit missing yourself. and if you have forgotten what you used to be, did that other you ever exsist at all? people tell me it did, but i wonder. talked with a friend with reguard to the possibility that i may have been damaged by previous projects. somewhat likely, as that is about the time that change was noticed. angry that i am weak enough to let a mere human injure me to that extent. cat has cold feet. again. and would like to type on the keyboard. hum.

"Spirit. It is the hero's strength, the mother's resilience, and the poor man's armor. It cannot be broken, and it cannot be taken away. This I must believe."

-CR