So lets review:

Things seem to be continuing to head towards hell at an ever increasing speed.

Dad's out of surgery. 6 months of chemo. OH JOY!

Cat is going IN for surgery. Either a cancer or not. Whoopee.

First on-air full shift tomorrow at the radio station. There goes my night. Havn't even been on the air since about a month ago.

Spent some time with the muse a few days ago. Was good. Chilling, talking. He'll point out that I'm not what I used to be, and that is true. He calls me less angry. More wise. I don't know if I belive that or not.

Mostly it had to do with the football analogy. Mayhaps seeing Sortun down there helped with it. But I doubt it. Only a fool runs a pass with a single wideout. If the coverage is good, you're fucked.

But now add 4 more. Make it an empty backfield. 5 wideouts, plenty of options. All you have to do is sit in the pocket and wait to hit the open receiver.

So now what? I'm sitting with the ruins of a summer, and the remnants of some long lost feeling. I'm confused. At any rate, I wait. I wait for school to start and for my mind to become reoccupied by other things.

Nerf scissors, rock is fine. - Paper

-CR

Meditate on Forgivness.

Meditate on Lighthouse.

-CR

A symbol of hope in a time where most everything else seems hopeless:

See Lance.
See Lance Ride.

Ride Lance, Ride.

I'll take abandonment for 600 Alex.

DINGDINGDING! It's our daily double!

Dad looks... bad, but boss is dying outright.

I am surrounded with the feeling that everything around me is wilting, falling to ruin and death. There's just one person I want to talk to, strangely enough, nowhere to be found.

Don't ever let me be this person. Don't ever let me be the one that disappears when the need arises. When the waters rise I want to be the one laying sandbags and distributing waders. Not the one moving to higher ground.

"By the way I tried to say I'd be there..."

-CR

Might be a light in dark places, when all other lights go out.

This has been a gentle reminder that you will never

Never is a strong word. I will never. And I don't know why.