Tuesday, September 30, 2003
Monday, September 29, 2003
- Keseby Nights; Catch 22
Sunday, September 28, 2003
treebucket boy: fuckity yeehaw
treebucket boy: do you even have to ask?
Quality.
Saturday, September 27, 2003
"I find your lack of pants disturbing."
-CR
Thursday, September 25, 2003
Fun Science fact: Cats suffer LESS injury the farther they fall if the fall is greater than 7 or 8 floors, depending on the height of each floor.
-CR
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
ways to feel like an ass: get really really worked up and worried about something.
Look at your archives. Realize that you were wrong. And that nothing is wrong.
Commence Ass-ifying.
I feel like I am dying on the inside.
it hurts. what am i supposed to do about it. nothing. do nothing. nothing at all.
Shut the fuck up you are always complaining about shit why the fuck don't you ever fucking shut up? do you really think complaining is going to help do you. NO it wont now shutt the FUCK up and get the HELLout of here.
I am going to find a place. Where it is just me.
alone.
maybe I can cry there.
maybe if they are kind they will let me die there.
And leave everything.
maybe.
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
You say that I have no power? Perhaps you speak truly... But you say that Dreams have no power here? Tell me... what power would hell have if those here imprisoned were not able to dream of heaven?
-Morpheus
Sandman
-CR
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
I salute whomever invented this whole love concept.
I want to buy him (her? did a girl invent it?) things. Or send them money. Or something.
You know. I bet they would have maked a killing had they only gotten their patent and copyright papers in.
Or something.
But yeah.
Flashbacks to the places the girl who talks with her Eyes and I have been. Both kinds. The physical location, latitude and longitude, but also distances we have journeyed into eachothers being. The feeling is amazing I don't know that such a thing can be described by one as simple as me. Can anyone, anyone capture love and hold it into words? Simple symbols which we recognize as sounds which then we translate to pure thought? I believe love truly has to be experienced. On top of that, I would imagine that it is different for every person therefore how you describe love, is not my love. That is yours, not mine. Maybe that is the way of such things. Love is never to truly be described by a human, for if it ever is, it stands to lose all of its power and allure.
It must be experienced. It must be felt.
Not read in a book. Or a blog. It must be felt.
I am just happy that this feeling, this love, my feeling, my love, is... the way that it is. To describe it would be futile, and stupid. There are only two people that know the force this feeling has. I am one of them. She is the other, and no-one else among you knows at all of what I speak.
And that is the way of things.
"There are mysteries about our love. Things that neither one of us may ever understand because love is an emotion without limit and understanding. We know we love each other but we could never explain completely as WHY we love each other. Love is not a clock. You simply cannot take it apart just to see what makes it tick, and even if you could, you probably could never get it back together again. "
"Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away."
-CR
Second closer was for a foolish boy from Shelton. I think everyone here knows why. *sneer* "A choice" indeed...
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
34 is not divisable by 3.
This scares me.
-CR
Monday, September 15, 2003
Or am I next?
Or... ?
-CR
If hospitality does not suit the situation, one must settle for Malice."
-CR
Sunday, September 14, 2003
yup!
See ya'll later! I'm off to beat up crippled kids.
No, really. I'm serious.
Really.
-CR
Saturday, September 13, 2003
"The fact that you've got "Replica" written down the side of your gun. And the fact that I've got "Desert Eagle point five O" written on the side of mine, should precipitate your balls into shrinking, along with your presence. Now... FUCK OFF!"
-CR
So this is college. Me sitting, listening to Billy Joel's, "Piano Man" whilst writing and writing and writing and writing. I've only made it 1/3 of the way through. This has taken me 3 hours. So this is college. Welcome to the next 4 years of your life. I really wish that the girl who talks with her Eyes were here... would make everything so much better.
"All thought is immoral. Its very essence is destruction.
If you think of anything, you kill it.
Nothing survives being thought of."
-Oscar Wilde
-CR
Friday, September 12, 2003
Estimated time until objective is taken: One Hour.
Surprise attack indeed.
YA! LET'S HEAR IT FOR COMBAT LAUNDRY!
-CR
Thursday, September 11, 2003
Some men are born great, some achieve greatness and some slit the throats of any man that stands between them and the mantle of power. You never met a man you couldn't eviscerate. Not that mindless violence is the only avenue open to you - but why take an avenue when you have complete freeway access? You are the definitive Man of Action. You are James Bond in a blousy shirt and drawstring-fly pants. Your swash was buckled long ago and you have never been so sure of anything in your life as in your ability to bend everyone to your will. You will call anyone out and cut off their head if they show any sign of taking you on or backing down. You cannot be saddled with tedious underlings, but if one of your lieutenants shows an overly developed sense of ambition he may find more suitable accommodations in Davy Jones' locker. That is, of course, IF you notice him. You tend to be self absorbed - a weakness that may keep you from seeing enemies where they are and imagining them where they are not.
What's Yer Inner Pirate?
brought to you by The Official Talk Like A Pirate Web Site. Arrrrr!
Heh Heh. Sweet. Never met a man I couldn't eviscerate. I'd make a good pirate.
-CR
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
I just want silence.
Silent like the 3,170.
Remember them?
We cannot forget.
Ever.
For I know that they have not forgotten.
-CR
-CR
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
the past does not matter. the future matters. the decisions that we made yesterday aren't nessacarly the same ones the we'll make today. You recreate yourself everyday. Maybe not that big of one, but for me, it was massive. I'm not the same as i was yesterday. Neither are you for that matter.
-CR
"Every moment is another opportunity to turn it all around."
-Vanilla Sky
Monday, September 08, 2003
Dinner was out of food upon my arrival.
Life is emphermal.
Failed two quizzes in aforementioned class.
Did the wrong problems for homework in aforementioned class.
Do over.
Early to German.
Failed my homework assignment.
Circled the whole thing in red ink.
Do over.
Must create dialogue for german.
I cannot write a fucking letter right and she wants a goddamn dialoge.
FUCK YOU BITCH!
On time to world views.
Cut off by teacher.
Made a fool of by teacher.
Scorned by teacher for talking too much in discussion.
FUCK YOU ASSWIPE! I haven't said a word!
Laughed at by class.
Given assignment that I do not understand.
Must redo physics by 5.
Must redo german by 5.
Music at 4:30.
I'm fucked.
What a fucking shitty day.
I want to scream.
I want to die.
I want to cry.
Sunday, September 07, 2003
The Weathering
The Storm rises.
Frowning on
A little girl standing alone.
Half the size of the wheel.
At the Helm.
Like dust against the winds;
Face twisted into
Determined Grimace
At the Helm;
This is the story of her
Life.
Her eyes squint against the wind.
Searching, Searching.
Past the miles of blue on every side
Past the Storm;
This shall be the story of her
Life.
Her golden hair will fly behind,
Begging her to stay too.
The face will set harder
Eyes will continue their search.
At the helm.
She has never failed before.
She won't start now.
Saturday, September 06, 2003
-CR
-CR
Friday, September 05, 2003
"The more sensitive you are, the more likely you are to be brutalized, develop scabs, never evolve. Never allow yourself to feel anything, because you always feel too much."
-CR
Thursday, September 04, 2003
Something is amiss with a girl in seattle.
Hm. This intrigues me, and I desire to know exactly what it is. Somehow, I do not think that I will be allowed in however.
Tragic.
"Make sure the people you're spending time thinking about, are worth your thought and essentially worth your life."
-CR
Zen.
-CR
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
A converstaion needs to happen. Though I know not how to begin it. Or what to say, or even the result that is desired. Only a vague feeling that a conversation does need to take place.
I got a matress at long last.
God be praised. For he is merciful.
-CR
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
Still matressless. Urge to not care, rising.
-CR
"What do I care for your suffering? Pain, even agony, is no more than information before the senses, data fed to the computer of the mind. The lesson is simple: you have received the information, now act on it. Take control of the input and you shall become master of the output."
Chairman Sheng-ji Yang
"Essays on Mind and Matter"